Memories

I have all these memories. These memories and feelings of love. But now they’re just that. Only memories. I wanted him back. I wished that it hadn’t all fallen apart. But I know it just wasn’t right. The bad outweighing the good in that situation. Then I look around and realize there is no one else. No one interested in me that is. As that sinks in all I want to do is hide, curl up into a ball and die. Because I don’t want to be alone. That’s one of my deepest fears. That no one will ever love me and if they do it won’t be as much as I love them. I’m scared I’ll be forever alone. Because even when I’m around my friends I feel alone.

But my Dear, feelings lie. That’s why it’s so dangerous to live only by doing what feels right in the moment. Only following your heart will be what gets it broken. Your heart doesn’t think. Feelings don’t use logic. Feelings last for mear moments and they don’t think about consequences. They aren’t wise.

There is always hope. You aren’t alone no matter how lonely you feel. You’ll never be alone. You are loved. You have been loved since before you even took your first breath. That boy who broke your heart didn’t know what true love is. He wasn’t right for you because he couldn’t see that you are worth it. Worth the pain, the fights, the late nights, the love, the loyalty, the purity. You are worth the entire world. The right man will see that. So until then sit in the tower. Forget the boy who didn’t value the queen he had sitting in front of him. Because you are a queen, and queens never settle.